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lily (amortentia) wrote,
@ 2011-02-05 22:03:00

intoxicating

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	intoxicating 2011-03-08 03:02 am UTC (link)
	hi lily, how was your day? i tried to see you after potions but you must have already gone. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-03-08 03:39 am UTC (link)
	hi. yes, i left in a bit of a rush. did you need something? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-03-08 04:02 am UTC (link)
	no, nothing important. i just wanted to say hi and maybe see if you wanted to study or hang out or something like that. i just like getting to see you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-03-08 04:10 am UTC (link)
	i think i'm all studied out but i'd love to see you sometime. what have you been up to? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-03-08 04:14 am UTC (link)
	you don't know how happy that makes me. i've just been doing my work, trying to avoid potter and his gang, keeping away from most of those things for a little while. what about you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-03-08 04:28 am UTC (link)
	well, it's a bit strange not seeing you as much. oh yes, i usually try to avoid him too. the whole lot, except i quite like remus. i haven't been up to much, it's all work with me but you can get me out of that, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-03-08 04:50 am UTC (link)
	i agree, i don't like not seeing you a lot. you always put a smile on my face. i don't know, there's something funny about him but i guess he isn't as bad as the rest. of course i can, we can forget all about work when we're together. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-03-08 05:21 am UTC (link)
	well, maybe he’s just a little misunderstood, kind of like you, but he’s a sweetheart, sev. good i’ve been drowning in transfiguration homework and i’m done. i can’t wait for the summer. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

intoxicating
2011-03-08 05:33 am UTC (link)

i just don't see why he would want to hang around with potter and black, but i guess that doesn't make him a bad person. i know what it feels like to be misunderstood and it feels nice to know that you always seem to understand me. i'll be glad to be done with schoolwork but i rather hate leaving hogwarts, i would prefer to spend the whole year round here. is that awful?

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	amortentia 2011-03-08 05:52 am UTC (link)
	i suppose that he can see the redeeming parts of them and everyone needs a friend like that. well, no i guess no considering things but i would miss you while i’m at home. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-03-08 06:10 am UTC (link)
	you're absolutely right, i'm glad that you can see the redeeming parts of me and enjoy my company. you would really miss me? living close to you, that is the only good part about getting to go home. at least there we don't have to be slytherin and gryffindor, we can just be sev and lily. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-03-08 06:27 am UTC (link)
	there are many things to enjoy about you that i wished others could see. of course i would, the last summer without you was a bit lonely. that’s true. do you think it would be different if we were sorted into the same house? would things be easier? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

intoxicating
2011-03-08 06:44 am UTC (link)

that makes me feel a lot better about myself than i would have otherwise. you make me feel special, that you would want to be around me when you could be with anyone else. the last summer without you was awful, i don't like not seeing you often. i don't know. they might be? no matter what house i'm in, i'm always going to be that kind of guy that no one really knows how to get along with. i always appreciated you still wanting to be in my company even though i'm not the kind of guy who will win you anymore friends or popularity. what do you think?

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amortentia
2011-03-08 06:04 pm UTC (link)

you should feel special because you are, not because i think so. you don’t give yourself enough credit. it’s a tough question, isn’t it? i’ve never really cared about being popular or having a huge circle of friends. i’m happy with the people i consider friends, you’ve been a good one and that’s what matters to me. i do think things would be a little easier if we were sorted into the same house or even different houses in general. there is such a rift between our houses and i always assumed that if one of us ended up in a different house.. i don’t know, nothing worth having comes easy.

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intoxicating
2011-03-09 07:05 am UTC (link)

i don't always feel it but thank you. you are the special one though, honestly. that is something i really like about you, that you don't care about those things. that you are strong enough to stand up for what you believe in and not care what people think about you. but you wouldn't be a gryffindor if you weren't brave, would you. it is hard having such a rivalry between our houses but i think that is a testament to our friendship, that we could keep it even against all the odds. you are worth fighting for though. i would do anything to stay close to you, lily.

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amortentia
2011-03-10 04:45 am UTC (link)

i guess i care what people think to an extent, i’ve always cared what you thought but that goes along with being close to someone for such a long time. i would hate to do anything that caused you to see me differently. oh, i don’t know if i’m brave. occasionally my stubbornness can be seen as bravery, but i just don’t know when to keep my mouth shut sometimes. i’m glad you care about our friendship, i’ve never wanted to come between you and your other friends but i have wondered if you preferred them over me. not in a jealous way or anything... i’m fine with you having other friends, i just wouldn’t want to lose you because someone better came along.

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intoxicating
2011-03-11 03:17 am UTC (link)

i don't know if you could do anything to make me see you differently, honestly. i have always liked you and i don't think anything is going to change that. i like that you are stubborn though. that you never give up on the things you believe in. of course, it hurt when you believed so strongly in not talking to me and i am so glad i could change your mind and convince you to give me another chance. but lily, no. never. there is no way i could even begin to prefer them to you. no one better is going to come along. no matter that i am who i am, even if i were someone swarmed with friends, there wouldn't be anyone better than you. i mean that.

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	amortentia 2011-03-11 04:29 am UTC (link)
	oh no, sometimes i think you give me too much credit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-03-11 05:02 am UTC (link)
	no, believe me. i mean everything i have been telling you. i don't think you give yourself enough credit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-03-11 05:34 am UTC (link)
	it seems we both have that problem, we need to learn to recognize how truly great we are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-03-11 06:30 am UTC (link)
	i think you are the only person who has ever told me that i'm great. i won't lie to you, lily. hearing you say it makes me feel very happy inside. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-03-11 06:43 am UTC (link)
	well you are! you should hear it more, i will be around whenever you need to hear it. how are things at home? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-03-13 10:40 pm UTC (link)
	i like knowing you will always be around, whether you're telling me it or not. i think you need to hear it more too. i want you to know how amazing you are. things are .... well, they're things at home. not great as usual. but it's okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-03-16 04:21 am UTC (link)
	oh, sorry if i'm prying, it's just i got curious and you don't talk about.. never mind i'm just being nosy. so, we have a hogsmeade visit coming u and i think i need sweets. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	intoxicating 2011-07-16 03:59 pm UTC (link)
	how are you enjoying the summer holidays? i haven't seen you around as much this summer, i hope things are going alright. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-07-17 05:48 am UTC (link)
	is it odd that i miss school during the holidays? things are wonderful. mum and dad have been taking the family on outings, trying to encourage family unity i suppose. how are things with you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-07-18 01:53 am UTC (link)
	no, it isn't odd at all. i feel more at home at school than i ever have at my own house actually. are things with petunia still bad? she's just jealous i think. but i guess i've been alright. i kind of dread the holidays, i don't much like being home with my father. i've been spending as much time out of the house as i can. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

amortentia
2011-07-18 02:21 am UTC (link)

i get a different sense of home when i’m at school. i miss my family while i’m there of course but hogwarts will always be special to me. yes, things are still the same between us. i try and try but she still ignores me. i don’t want to give up on her though. how is your mum? the few moments i’ve had alone i’ve just been reading. i take a book to the old playground sometimes. what have you been up to?

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intoxicating
2011-07-18 03:03 am UTC (link)

you're lucky your parents are so kind. i don't like the way she treats you though, she's got no right acting that way. you deserve better treatment. my mum's alright, i feel sorry for her having to be around my father the whole year round. it's nice to be back with her but i try and stay out of the house so i don't have to see him. i've read some, been trying to work on some spells of my own, mostly just trying to keep out of the way. i would really like to get to see you, lily. if you wanted.

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amortentia
2011-07-18 03:34 am UTC (link)

petunia has always liked some sort of order and anything out of the ordinary is not acceptable. i have to admit i thought she would have adjusted to me by now. i kind of miss how things were between us. you should do things with your mum, maybe outside of the house. i’ve always been a bit jealous of that, i can never get my own spells to work properly. yes, that would be nice. i’d like a break from my current company.

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intoxicating
2011-07-18 05:55 am UTC (link)

i just know that if i had a sister who loved me i wouldn't treat her that way. i don't like thinking of you being ignored and treating you like some kind of awful thing when you are such a beautiful person inside, no matter if you are out of the ordinary or not. we don't have a ton of money, my mum and i so it's harder to go do things but i know we'll try. she likes going to see the countryside when we can together. if you ever need help with it, you know i would always be willing. but good. i've missed seeing you.

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amortentia
2011-07-18 06:31 am UTC (link)

don’t let it weigh too much on your mind. it will be okay, everything works itself out. perhaps, i should just take the hint. there are things you could do that don’t require a lot of money. i’m sure she would just appreciate spending time with you. i just might take you up on that, sev. i could definitely use the help. i’ve missed seeing you too, it’s a bit harder outside of school and i never want to wear out my welcome

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intoxicating
2011-07-19 02:39 am UTC (link)

i'm sorry, i don't mean to be bringing it up if you don't want to talk about it. we actually spent some time together today, my mum and i. it was nice to have a break from my father, i think we both thought so though i know she'd never admit it to me and it was nice to spend time with her, she's about the only thing i miss when i'm at school. lily i promise you, you could never wear out your welcome. i love spending time with you and it would be great to get to see you again.

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	amortentia 2011-07-19 05:04 am UTC (link)
	thanks. it’s just a little hard to talk about. that sounds wonderful and i’m glad you enjoyed yourself! i know you can take care of yourself but i don’t like how you spend so much time alone. i’m glad you think so because you’re one of the few people i can truly talk to (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-07-19 09:21 am UTC (link)
	it's not bad, being with my mum. i've just always prefered my own company i guess, except for when it comes to you. i would always rather spend time with you. i'll always be there to listen to you when you need to talk, lily. you know that, right? no matter what. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-07-19 07:51 pm UTC (link)
	oh of course i know that. i talk, you listen we have a very balanced relationship and i appreciate you being there for me (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-07-19 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	there will never be a day i won't be there for you, lily. when would you like to get together? are you free? i'm excited at the thought of spending time together again, like how we used to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-07-19 11:28 pm UTC (link)
	i am too, i miss having you around. i'm free now, i just got home from a bit of shopping. or if you're busy we can plan something tomorrow afternoon (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	intoxicating 2011-07-20 08:28 am UTC (link)
	it means a lot that you enjoy my company again, lily. i would love to see you tomorrow afternoon, more than anything. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	intoxicating 2011-10-27 08:10 am UTC (link)
	hey lily? you know that bravery we talked about? i think i'm starting to feel it. would you maybe want to meet up over the weekend? i'd really like to talk to you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	amortentia 2011-10-27 08:51 am UTC (link)
	so soon? i must say i'm impressed. of course we can, i'm always happy to see you severus (Reply to this) (Parent)